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2010-12-19T07:49:00.000-08:00

pretty shitty

2010-09-13T07:14:00.000-07:00

today is ANDREA & REGINA 's BDAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so today is quite tight
morning ive got english paper till 9.40pm
the paper is hard
just hard
hope that i wont fail( which i cant fail at all!!)
after that i have to rush to the art room to do my prelims art preparation
about 1.45pm i had to meet up with liting and then rush to kovan to meet up with Queenie
and we brought some pressies for the 2 bdae girlz
after that we sat bus 81 & 31 to simei ITE to look 4 em
during the journey, liting and i wet ourselves in the bus talking craps about MDM LEONG, JEFFERY JJ and OR DE!!!!
hahahahaha~

o...
erm needa go already
tomorrow still got Social Studies and Mathz Paper2
i dont care!!!!
i must pass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
next time come back and talk more about Andrea and Regina' bdae:)

i LOVE ya ol Babes!!!!!!!!!

ps:
oh yeah
erm today is also my chinese bdae
hahaha~

2010-09-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

i dont what the hell is happening to me!!!!!
after surfing the net
i looked around me
and i found myself with loadz of notes covering me
then i start to feel very geeky!!!!
WHY???!!!!
WHY AM I BEING SUCH A GEEK???!!!!!
im used to 'Hey I Dont Give A Fuck A Exam OK!!!! Dont Bloody Asked Me Whether I Did Studied Anot Coz I Aint Giving A shit!'
but now...
here im
covered with notes and studying 4 examz
haiz....
I guess Nlevelz and Olevelz really turned me into a Total Freak.
Proper Major Psycho Geek!!
this is bad
REAL BAD!
I sweaar that the day my Olevelz end,
I WILL FIND THE BLOODY WAY BACK TO THE REAL ME!

END.

2010-09-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

i got up very early today at 9am plus
today is a holiday coz of Teacher's Day
tomorrow i will be having my english paper1 and mathz paper1 prelim
most of the day im studying mathz only and reading story book
coz english dont need to study one
that one can count on luck:)

when i got up in the morning i had a proper bodyache
like im gonna fall sick again
tomorrow is my prelimz and i gonna fall sick
GREAT.
im NOT gonna fail Mathz again!!!!!
i used to ace in Mathz
but in this year dont no why i keep failing
NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!
im BLOODY not failing this time!
im gonna pass:)
i can bloody pass right????!!!!!!
of coz!

hopefully i will feel better tomorrow
coz the day after will be my Geography and Chinese paper1
as i said, all those language paper dont need to study one
so same 4 chinese
BUT!
Geo....yeah
that one also "Huat" arh
i also used to ace in that too but also dont know why i keep failing this year
OK. fair play
is Failed ALL THE TIME!
this one very jialat than Mathz....
this one also got a hell loadz of things to study
BRILLIANT.
but i will try my best:)

All these Examz thingy are JARRING MY HEAD big time!

2010-08-31T00:07:00.000-07:00

dayz in school are proper hectic
ive sooo busy these few dayz
busy with school, family, besties, icy tower....
and im so sorry edward that i dont even have time to think bout you
i stay in school till almost 9pm to study almost everyday
OK to be fair...not totally study
basically these dayz i stayed back after school till bout 6pm to do my Olevel art coursework
that thing is BENDING MY HEAD!!!!
ive spent SO much time doing it and i still feel that its impossible to finish it
i find that this year i have been neglecting my other subjects alot coz of art
i really hope that i can get slamming results for it...probably an A :)
so anyways, after i have to be out from the art room coz my art teacher have to go home already...
i went down to the canteen and sit down with my mates: Henry, Yihui , sometimes Siew Mei.
but most of the time is with Henry and Yihui
almost the whole henry and i were busy wetting ourselves and yihui is trying hard to concentrate on her studies
sorry Yihui!!!! for disturbing you these dayz....i always forget to tell you this...
hahahahaha!!!!!
me and henry were busy talking farts and craps about MDM LEONG!!!
hahahahahahahahaha~~~~~~
We were like:
eh...can you imagine hor mdm leong play flying fox???!!!!!!
imagine mdm leong is a mammoth??!!!!!!!!!!!!
WereWolf?!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!
BRAP BRRRAAAAP BBBBBBBBBRRRRRRAAAAAAPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha~

so damm funny lor....
i cant remember all of them coz there are toooo many
lol!
Mdm leong is just a bitchy form teacher in my sec1 time
everytime scold me
i dont wanna write out what ive been scolded for coz im afraid that i might lose myself in front of my mother!
hahahaha
most important thing is that she once came into our class that time and slam her hand on table...then she pointed our class MIDDLE FINGER!!!!!!!
hahahaa
no one really saw it but i Clearly saw that she really pointed it quite high and it was bloody obvious!
coz at that time nobody was giving a damm when she came into our class and scream
if not for she pulled me out of the class to ask me for shitty things about the class fund...i wouldnt give a fuck to her too
oh~
did i mentioned before that i used to be the finance manager in my class back in sec1?!
hell yes! i know it is so bloody geek and thatz why ive done a bad job:)

last saturday i did hang out with Wanting and we went shopping at Bugis Street and City Plaza(to find really cheap and mint stuffs)
but honestly im broke at that time so that only things that ive spent are:
1beauty product for my acne problem,
1 miserable pair of earrings(coz im really broke and that is the only earring that i really love)
1 small size fries from Long John Silver
1 regular size of soybean milk
yeah....thatz ol...very pathetic i know...

Im really a goood girl these dayz(damm geeky)
yesterday i did go to school even when im not feeling well
but i went home during recess
ha!
so this week my prelimz starts
im have to work hard!!!!
haiz 17 aint sweet at all
olevelz are really drilling my head,soul,life!
to me at this point of life...
i feel like im undergoing menopause....
oh!!!!
NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i HOPE not!!!!

PS:
i miss Queenie, Regina, Andrea, Jasmine MUCH MUCH!!!!!!!
sorry guyz 4 not contacting you ol these dayz....
after my prelims i will hang out with ya ol!!!!!

SEE?!
what have the Stupid Shit Prat Olevelz done to me?!
cant see my besties much anymore....
hate it hateit HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i Wanna SEEEEEE MY BESTIES MORE LIKE LAST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TALK MORE LIKE LAST TTTTIIIIIMMMMEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HANG OUT FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-21T11:44:00.000-07:00

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bloody heck man!
lucky i didnt get my dpa coz i just fucking found out that *HE* is in Freaking Temasek Poly!!!!!!!!!!!!

LUCKY MAN!!!
Phew!
coz i dont wanna be in the same school anymore
coz i might wanna stay single 4 life if i see him again!
i knew IT!!!
of coz! he is so smart! (oh my man~)
and hot and beautiful hair and rock my world and sexy and handsome and abit gay and i like it and.....OH Damm IT!!!!!
SSSSTTTTTOOOOOOOPPPP!!!!!!!

oh and i did create a facebook account JUST!!! 4 the sake of Icy Tower
didnt go and add anybody coz the only purpose is playing Icy Tower:)
i did the quizzaz thingy on facebook AND 1 of the quiz say
I LOVE *HIM* IS FANTASY!!!!!!
I LOVE EDWARD IS TRUE LOVE!!!!!

i think also quite true ba....
i dont know
i siao already
im always siao

i really love Edward but he doesnt exist
i not very sure whether i still love him coz for i thing im sure is that i couldnt forget him
he is my first crush ya know...but then he DO exist
but i also and feel that my feelings for Edward are stronger than him
how?
my chance with Edward can be a yes if i imagine but with him is a Complete No!!!
hell no!!!!
i couldnt dream of that lol
i find it very disgusting!
like a freak!!!!!!
so how?
again?
go to woodbridge again arh?!(not like i even been there b4. just that i think i belong there)

2010-08-21T10:49:00.000-07:00

oh~
i got 5 words to describe my life:
-Suck
-Suckling
-Suck
-Suck
-and Suckz!

lol
i got nothing to write about this few dayz
erm ok...my art coursework is finally almost finished:)
and i think thatz ol
there is nothing fun to talk about me coz my life suckZzzzz
Wtf...

oh and im currently reading a book called 'Suck To Be Me'
ha!

erm...
i think im lying just now
actually i got a hell lots of things to say
but i forget already and i cant be bother to recap
coz my mind is full of Icy Tower and Art
so im gonna stop coz my Icy Tower had finished loading
im now in 4 the jump!
Yes!!

2010-08-07T23:40:00.000-07:00

ok.
is not that i BHB or something
i never mean that people got see my blog
i think nobody will see my blog besides my friends
and i absolutely 999% just wanna remind myself that these are the idols that i always fond of
coz im scare that 1 day if i really become mental unstabled, i hope that blog can help me to remember myself
And if someday i become famous then people know more about me if they wanna write a biography book of me

So these are my All Time favourites!

1)MCFLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cutest boyband ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love everybody in this band:)

2)MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY Favourite Emo Band!!
I love the way they wrote songs about blood, death and blah blah....all those emo stuffs

3)BLACK EYED PEAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love Taboo the MOST!!!
i like his long hair
very silky, soft and sexy
SSS for his HAIR!!!!

4)BEYONCE!!!!!!!!
MY favourite female artist!!!!
i love her songs when she talk about strong women

5)oh bloody hell...EMINEM OF COZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg!!!!
i love him i love him i love him[infinity]
i love how he use all those vulgar language in his songs
hahahaha!!!
i love him since primary school
he is my favourite male artist in my life!!!!

6)ADAM LAMBERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah!!!
he is the another 1 again
so damm sexy and hot!!!

love his songs
love his voice
love that he is a gay
love him so much......

ok
i know that the idols that i love came from diiferent genres
but still im not trying to prove that i have great taste in music
like i said i just wanna remind myself if someday i go bonkers~

2010-08-07T22:56:00.000-07:00

aiyo damm boring sia
4 dayz no need to go school
very good and very bad
ok la
very goooooood and not that bad :)
4 dayz off due to the National Day
Sat. Sun. Mon. Tue
Yea!!!!
no need to go school

dont why i find that this year my luck is not with me
really dont why
for the past few years im always the most luckiest one among all my friends
but this year?
kns.
im not saying that i got bad luck
but is just that i think i miss my friends tooooo much
ever since we all went to different schools, i dont feel good and secured anymore
i always felt that something is missing in me

ok, im off topic again
back to the lucky-ness
aiya
i dont know how to explain la
i just feel luck is sooo not with me this year
and i hate it!
last time everything always went smoothly in my life
i really need to worry about anything
coz as long i wish for it, it will always come true
as long i really need something, i will always get it
But now, im not sure of myself
im not sure whether i want/need things anot
im not sure whether my heart really wish for it anot
or all the long this year im just saying things that i want/need but i dont really mean it
haiz...
i really dont know

The Only Things That I Wish For In This Year Are:
1)pass olevel and the results are below 20 points
2)things will get better for my family. i mean Really Better please!
3)all my friends are by my side again coz i really miss them all
4)liting can can pass her nlevel and get promoted to sec5
5)things will get better and better and better[100x] for me

these are what i really want/need it to come true
but out of 5
i can only feel that only 4 can come true
as a Virgo, im a perfectionist
i want everything to be perfect
but still i understand that nothing can be perfect
and the others things?
im not sure whether i really mean it anot
that is why i said i need a psychlogist
again

i not that normal type of person that can accept changes
i really cant accept the fact that friends have to go to ITE
i really cant.....accept that
its hard for me
the first separation from my friends is with liting in Sec3
i can say that time was the toughest time in my secondary life
we suddenly have to go to different class
she is a easy-going so she is good in handling this kind of situation and she did get along with her classmates well
but me?
it took me 2 BLOODY YEARS to get along with almost everybody in my class
and its not that perfectly good
i started to get along with my own classmates only in this year
Sec 5.
its very terrible i know
i know them since Sec 3 but i never talk to most of them until Sec 5

so you see...
its very[100x] bad
i need my friends
i try my very best not to think of next year
i really hurts me
next year will be worst than Sec3
i know

2010-08-05T01:36:00.000-07:00

now im at home
damm tired
but im not going to sleep
wah today like that walk out of school halfway really make me miss two things very much lor
1)Regina, Andrea and Queenie
2)Sec1
hahahahaha
i very long time never do like that le
guess im a geek for toooo long

so just now at liting's house watching The Crazies
hahahaha
the show really siao 1, and horror too
i very long time never watch horror/hardcore/gory movies
ok la qutie nice:)
i will buy the DVD
actually Yihui and i wanna go watch this show at the cinema de
but then i dont think i got money to go out again
siao! i keep going out until im broke
more specifically, DAMM BROKE
coz we got nothing to do already so liting ask me wanna watch some movies
and the first thing that came into my minds is The Crazies lor
im abit mad about the show 4 a very long time since February
that is the first time that i saw the commercial and i went gaga about it

when i went home, liting take me to the bustop for bus89
coz i seriously dont know how to go there
and on our way there
i suggested that one day, before liting's nlevel
we should go out and do some of the crazy and violence stuffs like what we used to do during sec1 and sec2
coz i really miss those times

Stuffs like:
1) Go vandalise the lift and rephase people names into very vulgar language and write it there
2) Go Chua Tai Ji for no reason(gang fight)
3) Go download more technos and use our phones to blast it on people ears when they sleeping in the bus. Like a violence wakeup call. This one also for no reason
4) Go playground and fight with those small little kids
5) Go knock on people door for no reason and then run away
6) Write/Draw more funny sex stories
7) Go prank more people

i think thatz all i can think of
but i think still got alot to do
these are the most important ones
the reason why i wanna do this things is because i wanna leave more beautiful and funny[of coz] memories of liting when i leave this school next year
its like a priceless present to the both of us
coz i dont know how much insane time we can have together next time
i will cherish all these wonderful moments forever in my life
i will not forget de

2010-08-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

hello~
guess what?!
im at liting house:)
so yesterday is Jasmine's bdae :)
and liting and i went to white tangerine to celebrate her bdae
yesterday school was damn crap
got social studies mock test after school
damn late! 3pm start!
suck it man!!!

Today also got Geography mock test
but i didnt go
hahahaha
l even pon half day of the school:)
after recess i just happily stroll out of the school
so glory man!
so thatz ol...

2010-08-02T11:17:00.000-07:00

oh iy have been a long time since i upload photos of my manly edward

just now i say that i am thinking of him right?

actually i had been thinkin of him for few months since the first time i saw him in Twilight

oh btw

i watch twilight saga: Eclipse already:)

i watch very long time ago in cinema

watch it with yihui

the reason why i post his photos is coz he is lover

you must post your lover photos everytime one right??!!

so there you go

MY lover:)

hehehehe

wah lao

now 4.08am and i still cant sleep

later 6am must change clothes go school

den tomorrow still must stay back for art

i hope i can finish my Olevel art coursework fast

i think i gettin a headache now suddenly

i reckon that it is because of Edward my darling:)

coz you calm my brain down and make it stop working for good sake you know

hahahahaha

I LOVE YOU EDWARD!!!!!!!!!!

MUACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-30T21:55:00.000-07:00

oh...
about the part that i didnt notice the guyz rite...
i would like to stress on one sentence
IM NOT A LESBIAN!

2010-07-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

so yesterday i went to the esplanade to celebrate my school 100th anniversary.
it was grand
i went with yihui and siew mei
the whole school were there
liting was performing last nite in band
i was a little crazy when she came out
i scream her name and wave crazily to her
but she never saw me
lol
everybody there was gorgeous!
seriously!!
:)
ok....i really didnt go notice the guys
but the girls were damm hot!
hahahahaha!!!!
at that time i really felt stupid of my fatness
but after awhile i dont give a shit
i think i seriously need to see a doctor to help me control my thoughts
I GOT SPLIT THINKINGZ!!!!!
i need help
seriously i do
sometimes at a mintute i scold people and the next mintute i felt guilty about it
siao i!
so after the show i take mrt to serangoon with siew mei
and my parents send siew mei home from there
when i reach home i bathe...blah blah
after doing all basic stuffs
i went to read one chapter of twilight even though im damm tired
i must read that book before i go to sleep
thatz what i told myself everynite before i go to sleep
and thankz yihui for lending me that book for the second time hahaha!!!

2010-07-29T03:21:00.000-07:00

omg.
im just a silly mad cow thinkin bout life AGAIN!!!!
what the hell is wrong with me?!
im 16 years and i shouldnt be thinkin about life
im such a moron

:)

2010-07-29T03:13:00.001-07:00

finally im back!!!
but i think im going to go again...
things are bad again
am i gonna survive?

life is tough
school is tough
exam is tough
my brain is shrinking everyday
my heart is dissolving
my eyes are losing their focus
my nose is suffocating
i cant open my mouth
im gonna lose myself/nuts!

2010-04-23T11:58:00.000-07:00

hoooooooraaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!
its LITING' BDAE again!!!
omg
time files really fast
i still rmb just last year that i wrote on here...
celebrating liting's bdae blah blah
maybe time doesnt fly
it telepot(wateva)
btw
happy birtday liting!!!!!
i bet you must be v happy and tired about the DOUBLE celebration tis year!!!!
here to wish ya GOOOOOOD LUCK 4 EVEEEEYTHIIIING!!!!!
:)
tis year she celebrate with regina, andrea, jasmine and me just ytd at my house downstairs:)
den today she celebrate with yihui, siew mei and me again in school:D
hahahahaha!!
i think these are not the only celebration that she had
i think there will be more:)
KEEP ON GOING GIRL!!!!!!

btw my last post photos are uploaded my liting
thankz arh!
its just some pics of wat happen ytd :)
gonna upload wat happen today soon
but not now

i love:
-liting
-regina
-andrea
-jasmine
-queenie( your phone got probelm arh?! is it kanna spam by wee keng?hahaha...really got invite you lor)

ps:
i STILL love edward
last week just finish reading twilight in 3 dayz
yihui dey ol thinks it was crazy coz so fast
hahahaha
thank arh yihui for lending me the book
now is 3.37am
gonna go back to my half-way new moon book:)
dun no how im gonna wake up at 8am for photography session

2010-04-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

Helping sam to post :)
hahahahha.

2010-04-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

the last two dayz are the mintest day i had in this month!
first meet up with regina & andrea :)
hooray!!! finally!!! miss em lots lots...
second
ytd siew mei,yi hui,liting and me didnt go to sch
ALL OF US PON!!!!
huat arh!!!
so adventurous lor
so fun
i was planning to do it one more time
but of coz not soo fast lah
i aint that mental
so ytd we all meet up at pasir ris and do homework
not really 100% doing
its normal,and as usual
after they come to my house
while liting and me were busy doing our hair(perming 4 fun)
yi hui and siew mei had a lovely sleep on my bed!
hahahahah!
especially yi hui
i can see she is having sweet dreamz :D

ok...thatz ol about the mintest dayz

2day im back to my boringest and dry life in school
dun wanna talk about it or nag how i felt like dyin
coz i reckons i sounded like i was bloody 45years or somthing in my older posts about boring life
the only nice part was about the doing art thing in art lessons
i LOVE ART LESSONS!!!
no matter how drag it was!
juz love it!:)

counting from valentine's day till now...
i still love you edward :P
when you appear in my mind
do you know that you make me search my brain?!
but nvm :)
coz i thinks my brain doesnt exsist in the first place
u motivate me to find my brain!!! :D

you are really goregous and everything under the category of handsome
but i reckons u are still not that interesting and fascinating compared to other model

PS:
i miss queenie
i miss andrea
i miss regina
i miss jasmine
i miss jeslyn even
i miss every girls i know that are not in school this year

2010-04-06T02:28:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!!!!!!
school was bloody same
run 2.4km today
so hot
but still fail
nabei
whatever~

2day queenie came to school to take her N-level cert
so we meet
n she officially told me that SHE LOVE WEE KENG!
hahahahahahaha!!!!!!
see see queenie!!!!
i win!
hahahahaha....actually its not truth la
its juz a joke between us
hey wee keng!
im 500% absolutely NOT GUILTY for taking you as a joke!!!

today liting and all the band people peforming out on the parade square
under the hot sun
poor liting
their peformances was nice
i saw liting walking with i think jenny(her bandmates) towards their positions
and i scream out liting name but she didnt hear
many people came to watch too

these dayz
i had been thinking about alot of things
about life
about school
about family
about friends....

And my conclusions are these:

1) stay focus in school no matter what.try to came home and at least revise one subject.coz i felt like im getting far far behind from others
2) after o-levels,i want to have a break.i want to go poly later a year.i want to have fun with my life before i gets toooo old.
3) im reconsidering of goin to a U....for the sake of my family

i still cant do anything about my friends!!!
god.
i miss em lots~
life suckz without em
away from regina,andrea,queenie,jasmine
life is sooooo taff!
cant stop thinking about this when i was in class n school
begin to love sec 4 now
not sec 1 but sec 4
when i was hardworking
smart
besties are around me almost all the times
both physically and mentally crazy(not like now,only mentally crazy coz i kept
thinking that im not how long can i last in this situation)

2010-03-23T01:25:00.000-07:00

schooled.
ytd n today i v attentive
nv sleep at ol
nv put down my head on the table when the teacher is teaching
v good
v bad
good=work so hard for the first time
bad=tooo geek alr

haiz.......nv c her 2day
wonder how she is_-------.........

alright
now i had calm down so im goin to say what happen during the barbercue.......
i only tot that maybe he will come
coz daryl says his sister also got barbercue at the other side
tot only......
then about v later
liying,siew mei,yi hui and me go to the pool and play play
coz damm boring
and then!
when i stop playin liao
i came up from the pool and collect my slippers
i turn around...and i saw HIM!!!
the twins :)
i knw its them
they are with a huge bunch of friends
damm crazy lor
even though i didnt their faces
but i knew its them
immediately...
i run away with my slippers feeling abit dizzy
i dont dare to c them or let them c me lor
coz 1)i was just guessing...nv really expect them to really come
2)i so fat n ugly sia!! how can let him see me?!
3)im my legs start to feel numb..if i dont quickly run away,i will definately stand there like
a statue and wait for him and his whole bunch of friends and his twin brother to notice me!
4)my heart tells me to run.
Althought i nv saw his face
but im v v v v v v v contented already :)

PS: im not sure whether u are ok can ant

Another PS: i miss andrea
i miss regina
i miss queenie

2010-03-22T02:36:00.000-07:00

last thursday saw him(finally)
last friday lost my mp4 and headphones
got beaten like bonker
i everytime say i want/wish to return to sec1
last thursday, to me is like a fantasy
suddenly...i tot like i was in sec1 again
is like at the barbercue....
first:im hangin out with yihui(sec1 friend)
second:tokin to liying quite alot(sec1 close friend)
third:suddenly i saw him!!!!
crazy sia....actually im not prepare 4 it lor

Then the next day
i lost my mp4
my mum beat me until like wat like tt
the beatin also felt the like sec1
my mum never beat me since sec1
only different is that tis time when i broke my parents heart
i can feel it
which i totally now dont want to go back to sec1 le
maybe im more mature now
but i hate to say tis lor
so mature=so old

but i cannot be so selfish la
my mum asked me to think of my dad.....

poor thing
52 years old le still must work under the hot sun
every single day work until so hard
but still got sooo much debts
my parents got sooo much debts because we(the children) are at fault
even they dont have money but they still go try their best to find money regardless of whether they the money from....
just to make us happy and buy what we love
so that when we come to school or go outside....
we look "in"

so from now onwards!
i will study hard!
make money!
be a strong and independent woman(like oprah)!
make lifes better for my parents!

tis is the day i will move on with my life
i must not stuck in the past
2day is 22/3/10 (if im not wrong)
2day im reborn(again)
2day is also the day liting reborn
coz she told me that she is goin to move on with life like me
2day is OUR day :]

wah....i like sayin pledge sia :p
but so?!
who cares?!....

2010-03-19T04:10:00.000-07:00

it had been 34 dayz since i love edward
thinkin,talkin,screamin(in my brain) about him everyday
at least about 20 times his image pops out in my brain
and make my respiratory system jam....
watever~

im friggin insane now
ok....im alwayz insane but tis time is v v v v v v different!

ok...i shall explain why....
yesterday, siew mei n yihui meet up me at hougang mall
coz we are going to daryl's house for our class barbercue
but then,before we go his house....we go to the hougang mall roof top to turn our brainz around and round
hahahahahah!!!! yihui sayz she v v v dizzy and siew mei dont dare to play
hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love da playground upstairs sia!!!!
after tis,,,,,we go daryl's house coz its gettin late
the barbercue was not v fun coz a lot of ppl never come
but thatz ok with me
wat drove me fuckin insane is that~
I SAW HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wah~~~~
i tink i shall stop here lah lor
i cnt take it anymore
coz now im in my mum studyin place usin their com
scared that i lose control in the public
scared ltr i lost my way back home
im losin my mind
he + edward...................
wah~~~
jialat........
tooo much!!!!
i shall end here and continue the situation in my next post
coz im v v v v v v v surely,honestly,mentally unstable now

ps: i miss andrea
i miss regina
i miss queenie

2010-03-12T02:46:00.000-08:00

schooled today
still alive from the same old crap :]
2da i will not talk about how crap is school coz something bad and sad happen 2day
something terrible happen to my friend
cant tell who is it
coz im a secret protector :p
but i hope that everything will get better everyday 4 her
so to my friend...(dont worry toooooo much my dear)

nw...
im in my mum studying place
ok la
2day quite goood
still can let me use com nw

ok
nw i nothing to do so i wana write some of MY v v v v v PERSONAL THINGZ

THINKZ THAT I REGRET IN MY LIFE:
1) for being sooo fat at first(but erm...tt does nt mean that i will b going on diet,coz ttz stupid)
2)liking him(coz soooo many years already i still cant forget him.DAMN!)
3)lying to terrence about the truth of me(coz he is a great person/guy..not like those bastards outside!)
4)not studying hard like others(coz i tot that it will be cool if im different from others...but nw i hate to c my report slip)
5)backcombing my hair everyday(coz im addicted to it nw)
6)not smiling back to the cute guy[ang moh still!] who i met last week at my mum studying place who SMILE n LOOK at me for 2 times!!!but im tooo shy at tt time....i even make a 'i dont give a shit' face at him...but watever~
7)being a gal(be boy better!!!not need to think too much and i can imagine tt if im a boyz i bet tt i will look better :p)

THINKZ THAT I NEVER REGRET:
1)for not studying hard for PSLE and get into express and fulfil my mum wish at that time(coz i love being in NA too much)
2)being friendz with the sec1 gal gang last time.(really...no regret even they treat liting n maybe me bad ...that part of my life will remains as the most memorable memories...coz i really had sooo much fun at that time)
3)pranking people last time(i love it!!!but no one to prank now...i still hope that people can prank msg/call me)
4)always late 4 school(coz ttz accectable)
5)for playing truency all the time n skiping lesson
6)for sleeping in class
7)for making teachers vomit blood last time(coz ttz awesome!)
8)liking MARILYN MANSON last year
9)choosing to stay n help liting last time durin the sec2 quarrel
10)knowing hella good friendz like REGINA,ANDREA,QUEENIE(although dey had left 4 ite..WORK HARD GALZ!)
11)knowing liting,siew mei,yi hui,shiping,ee ni of coz
12)knowing him
13)loving EDWARD A WATCHING TWILIGHT
14)last and 4 ol....goin crazy :]

haiz...as for nw~
i really hope that my heart wont dies...
im tooo young 4 it to happen
if can i hope to really change everything

2010-03-10T01:03:00.000-08:00

first of ol,
i wana say that 2day im FUCKIN ANGRY!!!!!!!!
coz some sluts kip raking about the past!
im bleedin furious lor
ji bye la hor
kip sayin tis things 4 so many years
repeatin n repeatin...
if u think that tokin about the seems to be a "glory" to u...'
think twice
coz i haven n i will never 4gt every single thing about wat happen durin tt time
ol the people only listen to your one-sided story
i one day i will surely tell out every single thing about u ol if i hear ol these fuckz again
u ol kip wanting to ruin liting reputation rite?!
WAT THE FUCK is wrong with u ol man?!
when in the hell she badmouth about u ol sia?!
n where the fuck she makes u ol du lan with her?!
n she is not a prositute u ignorant knob-ass~

second
im damn excited,crazy and happy 2day
i agree tt im mentally unstabled
but who cares?!
coz u knw y?
:]
cant tell...
:p
so cya!!!!
oya...i almost 4gt to announce that im goin bankrupt
erm...more specifically i think is really bankrupt
nvm...watever~
i dont give a shit

2010-03-09T03:45:00.000-08:00

haiz...i miss regina,andrea,queenie soooooo bleedin much lor
dey say tt the more we grown up,
the more our heart dies....
i think this is totally true
if i am given 1 chance to go back to past n change everything
i will do it
and i will start to change everything frm sec1...

2010-03-09T03:21:00.000-08:00

MY GOD!

I LOVE HIM MAN!!!!!!!!!

he is soooooo~~~

i dun how to say...

coz he is soooo so ;p

2010-02-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

OM~BLOODY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im in LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!
but with someone WHO DOESNT EXSIST.....
very insane and complicated...
the person is~~~
EDWARD FROM TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argggggggggh!!!!
he rip off my soul out of my body
DAMM!!!
ok...
urgent~
needa go now
got time i will write more about it....
feeling pretty insane now...

2009-12-19T02:08:00.000-08:00

Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im FuckIn MAD!
Im Friggin INSANE!
Im Freakin SHENG JIN BING!
I Dont hw Tell Wat HAD HAPPEN
but I think im goin to WOODBRIDGE...
im goin to spend my remaining Holidays in the HOUNGANG CHALET

2009-10-08T01:43:00.000-07:00

YA HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~
N LEVEL ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im crazy right now
i cant really type much n focus wat am i going to write
coz im FLYING!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think the world knw now
coz i told everyone
i told to find me in the sky
i think i insane now
i really really cant type proper things now about n level
i guess i will do it after i landed
so gotta to go now
bye!!

btw ps:
guyz!!!i love you ol 4eva!!!!
hope/wish/pray that u ol will do well when the result are out!!!!!!!
muack muack muack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-02T21:36:00.000-07:00

ytd i go cut my hair with my mum
i love my new haircut
but im not going to tell the bad part of it
ytd my mum and i sit in the saloon 4 many hours
and i tot im going to die in it
coz the chemical smell was awful
the saloon was also full with ppl
it was very cheap
after that we reach home about 7pm
at home i do my art
still haven finish yet
bloody hell...
do until 2 plus coz my mum says she want to watch orphan again

ok...
now im going to study my science le...

im going insane!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-01T04:29:00.000-07:00

2day was quite crazy and boring
it was quite boring during school time
because so many of my friends didnt turned up 2day
but good things was that at least i know wat to do 4 art and im very focus,listening to teachers about wat dey are saying about n levels...
and at least i still got queenie neo the "rihanna" entertain me:}
after liting,timo,jasmine come to school 2 do art
goood!
and 2day i got a bdae present from liting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is a very cute pouch from the wallet shop
duno expensive ant
i think should be
but i hope not TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO expensive cos i dun want liting 2 waste so much $...
coz she is a student lyk me...nevey work...no much money
ok...just to cut it short
THANK YOU LITING!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU MUACK MUACK MUACK!!!!!!!
YOU,ANDREA,REGINA,QUEENIE ROCKZ FROM THE BOTTOM TO THE TOP!!!!!!!!

2009-09-28T02:37:00.000-07:00

2day was a little bit O to the M to the G...
coz im scare that i will have not enough time to do finish everything in this week
lyk i need to finish my art by this week coz next week is N LEVEL EXAM!!!!!!!!!
and things lyk studying for physic,chemistry,maths and geography
i dont whether i can make it a not
but i keep telling myself to just work hard for just less than 1 week
coz i also dont wanna waste my bloody time studying for 4 bloody years and end up cant get into sec5
thatz why i keep listening to this old song RICH GIRL by Gwen Stefani ft. Eve
coz getting an O LEVEL CERT. will help me get into better jobs so i can earn more money to lesser the burden of my parents and support myself
i scare that in future nobody want me...
scare that i will have no husband...children...so lonely...
at least i have money to pay nurses to takecare of me...
but of coz i hope i have a husband and children la
but now most importantly is that i hope that i can pass my N Levels to fulfil my parents wish
i am a very fillial daughter right?
:}

2009-09-24T23:53:00.000-07:00

ytd and today suckz!
oh nooo no no noo!NOOOOOOO~
i dont understand why people just cant keep it real when you need to be
ok...i admit that im not real sometimez but when if i really need to be real to solve things...
i will really keep the very best real...
ok...but really hope that things will get better
i mean my dayz will get better :}
coz im going to have fun tonight!!!!!!!!
LOTZ AND LOTZ OF FUN!!!!!!!
yea!!!!!!!!

2009-09-22T02:16:00.000-07:00

omg!
today i felt really great!
i received a self-made birthday card from regina & andrea 2day
and i LOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEE iT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!
it was very funny and very very very CUTE!!
just lyk their personallity!!!!!!!
thank you andrea and regina!!!!!!!
love ya'ol to bits!!!!!!!!
together,,,,,,,,,,,,,ANDREA,REGINA,QUEENIE,LITING and ME!!!!
.............will be the LEGEND OF THE NEXT GENERATION!!!!!!!
we will LAST 4EVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!
I LOVE OL MY BESTIES :}
and i also mean it is my RONG XIN to know you ol for so blooody long!!!!!!
and i wanna tell everyone that without LITING.ANDREA,REGINA and QUEENIE (the most beautiful babes in this world)by my side everyday......
sharing my happiness and sorrows....
i wont be a legend toooo!!!
without em,,,,,,i wont be cute,sexy,hot,clever,smart,hip!!!!!!!!(Just Joking :})
ok....let me summarise the ol thing...
I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT MY BESTIES!!!!
MATES!!!!!GIRLFRIENDS!!!!GANG!!!SISTERS!!!
or whatever...
jUST CANT LIVE WITHOUT EM....

2009-09-17T20:15:00.000-07:00

today i didnt go to school
my parents are furious
i get scolded before i went to sleep again
i guess the scolding will continute went my parents came back
while i was sleeping,i dreamt alot
not good again
bad dream
and i cry alot
when i woke up
there still tears on my face
hope that the dream will not come true
after i bathe
i study physic
im going to work a hell lot today
bye~

2009-09-17T00:25:00.001-07:00

today in school was abit crap
so i dun wanna talk bout it

erm...this few i had been thinking alot about money
i dun love it but i just wanna feel independent
i dun lyk taking people things
this also goes to my parents as well
i hope that i can earn some decent money of my own
so that i can lesser my parents' burden
im a good daugther rite? :]
i just hope that i can give my parents a better life...

im going to change my blogskins
coz my feelings for marilyn manson are fading
to be honest...im starting to dislike boys
but i not going to talk about it
coz they are not worth to be in my blog

im also thinking whether am i going to be a lesbian
the reasons are:
-i hate boyz
-im 16 and i still even dun have a bf(what a freak)
-in my whole life there are no boyz who ever like me(but i dont give a shit)
-ever since im addicted to reading seventeens,i felt that there are so many pretty girls on the streets who may not look pretty at first,but if you have closer look at em,you will find them actually pretty
-ol my friends are girls
-seldom talk to boyz
-not use to talking to guyz
-everytime when a guy talks to me,i got nothing to say!and i feel so lame
-for the whole damm 16 years of my life,not even once i got a date for valentine's day(what a freak again)
-i alwayz give a whatever face,(Hinting:you are hot,but stop looking at me coz i admit that im inexperience!)to some cutie at the mall or on the streets when they smilling and looking at me
-i duno how to filrt with guyz and i wonder how other girls can amazingly got a score in it without any effort.no matter how billions of advice from seventeens,i still cant get it right!they always name it as easy steps but it isnt to me!ohh~ damm!

but ol these reasons are still not the reasons that why i hate guyz
it have got nothing t odo with it....

ps:the only guyz that are not jerks to me:
-my dad
-my big brother
-my small brother

2009-09-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

last week was crap
next tym then talk bout it
ytd i went shopping with mum AGAIN!
both of us bought a shoe from Carlo Rino
mine are more expensive
but i love it
it matches this season of fashion
i love the colours(Aqua Blue)
i also love the toliet bowl pic :D
thank mum!

2009-08-31T01:53:00.000-07:00

late 4 sch(standard)
2day is teacher's day
i saw or de
he nv change at ol
still drives me crazy

i want to delicate this song below to my favorite or de:

i know you want me(or de)
you know i want cha
i know you want me~~~(or de)
you know i want cha

ok...thatz ol
the song finish alr
i hope to get 10 grammy awards 4 this songz by the end of the year
thank you v much people:]

clap clap~~~~~~~

2009-08-26T03:05:00.000-07:00

2day gone crazy
i almost laugh my throat out the whole day
OMG!!!!!!!!
2dat den i knew that EDMUND is the siao zao...
hahahahaha~~~~
after sch,
i follow liting n henry 2 white sands walk walk awhile
coz i oso nid to help my dad buy a file
the whole time with em i oso go crazy
i will fufill my goal de:}

i PASS art & geo at the moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-17T00:26:00.000-07:00

Whoa!!!!!!!!!!!
2day i get my results 4 english paper 2,geo and art
i got 44/80 for english paper2
i haven know paper 1 yet
den i got 25/50 for geo,just pass
but still!!!passing is oso something!
ps...i know i v hao lian
and i got 73/100 for ART!!!!!!!!!!!!
very shocked sia
shocked until i got no say in in art class
73 leh
i anyhow do one still can get soooo high
i nv listen other people marks but liting says that i got the highest marks!!!!!!!!
wah
first time sia so high
im really over the moon 2day
coz og my englisg and art results
i really got to thank JASMINE for getting my final design done out last minute
if not i think i will fail lor
THANK YOU JASMINE
I LOVE YOU MUACK!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-15T00:08:00.000-07:00

ytd huat arh!!!!!!!!
i ytd nv go sch
coz examz are over!!!!!!
but N-level still cumin lah
ytd soooo shiok!!!!!
my mum and i go treatment(hair) in the evening
i had longed to go 4 a treatment since last last last month!!!!
and it felt great!!!!!
nw my hair is sooo smooth,silky and shiny...
i love it i love it!!!!!!!
and yes!!!most importantly,its nt itchy anymore!!!!!!!!lyk last time it used to be
thankz mum!!!!!!
after that,we went for foot massage
at first it felt werid
i kept giggling
but my mum asked me to stop it
and i think it is quite rude to the person who is massaging me feet
so i stop
it was quite pain but it felts really great!!!!!!!
and it was really cheap
30 mins for $8 something
the place is located at west plaza
i felt really comfortable after doing it
my mum thinks that toooo!
:]
2day i haven done anything yet to talk about
so i shall stop here
:}
OYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nw i still love MARILYN MANSON!!!!!
so long alr but i everyday still think of him!!!!!!
everynight.........
OMG!!!!!!!!
MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!!
pls come to ME!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-11T01:22:00.000-07:00

2day i had my art and chinese examz
the chinese paper was hard
tml i will be taking my mathz paper2
really hope that i can pass ol the subjectz this time round
especially english

2day i found some pop art workz from the internet
Man....you gotta love ol these!!!!!

this bulldog is terribly cute!!!!!!!!!!!

Go retro!!!!!!!!!

she is damn hot!!!!!!

English Paper1,Social Studies,N-Level Chinese Oral

2009-08-03T02:21:00.000-07:00

2day,early in the morning i to meet up my whole ol gang of friendz at mac
quite tired but still meet up with em coz every long nv to tt alr
regina n andrea more tired
dey only slept a few hours only
sooo poor thing but dey work v hard
dey study last nite:]
i last nite study abit only
coz i dun have confidence in my social studies
sooo far i only pass that subject 1 time only
2day my english paper 1 was quite easy but i still scare about it
coz everytime i felt easy bout it but the results alwayz turn out quite bad
espeacially the mid-year resultz
it totally suckz!
later im goin to study HARD for my tml paperz,
English Paper 2 and Mathz Paper1
2day i dunno whether i can pass my N-Level Oral exam ant
coz my reading was not soo good
actually to quite bad lah
then my conversation i oso dunno
i dunno hw the examiner mark me
but hopefully i wish i can pass!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
wish me luck!!!!!!!!!
ohh~~
marilyn manson....
pls give my friends and i the power to pass!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-27T17:29:00.000-07:00

2day i nv go sch
im sick again
im havin sore throat
i dun even have a nice voice to speak
nw my voice sounds lyk those thailand AH GUA
it doesnt sounds lyk a female or a male
lyk shit
OMG
i've got to study!!!!!!!!!!!
i must study!!!!!!!
i dunno when will i grow up
until nw i still dun have the motivation to study
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHH!!!!!!
still very slack lyk sec 1
my mind keepz remindin me to study
but my heart alwayz keepz me away from it
wah lao!
nw den i really believe that the heart speak louder than anything in the world

btw,,,,,,,,,,,,,
last saturday is QUEENIE 'S BDAE!!!!!
im a bad fren lor
dun even remember a best fren bdae
such a loser man
btw,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
i still love marilyn manson!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im sick

2009-07-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

ooh~
today im not felling well
my dad.mum,sean are also sick
so sad
i got running nose,nose block,abit cough,body ache,dunno goin to have fever ant
but i hope not
i hate fever
it suckz!!!!
i dun wanna fall sick!!!!
coz monday my art teacher,mrs mahinda,is goin to bring the class out for an excursion to clark quay!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i damn damn damn wanna gooooo!!!!!!!!!!
i dun wanna miss any chance of goin excursion coz we seldom have that
hope i get well SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:]
btw...I LOVE MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIGGEST thankz to LITING coz she is the one who introduce him to ME!!!

2009-07-19T23:27:00.000-07:00

MY IDOL OF THE MOMENT

2009-07-19T22:04:00.000-07:00

yo!
nw i in school
damm tired and damm it!
nw is art lesson
so quite relaxing,no nid to think too much
erm...im in the sch's com lab searching for some pictures regarding bou MEMORIES OF FAMILY
so hard!!!!
den all the pictures i have found CANNOT COPY AND PASTE INTO MY FOLDER!!!!!!!
SUCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waste MY TIME!!!!!!!!
hahaha~
nvm...i can do other things lyk blogging nw.
ha!
sooo~i got nothing to write le

2009-07-14T03:16:00.000-07:00

today was quite boring but it is still nice
it is boring bcoz im tired
and i cant sleep bcoz this weng guan kip shouting SAMURAI! at me
obviously he wake me up...
erm..so i got nothing to write already...
i wanna take a nap!!!!!
btw...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MARILYN MANSON ROCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

ooh~
today was nice and great espeacially during recess
hahaha...
coz durin recess liting and i was all way laughin our ass off and i did really felt lyk screamin!
oh my gosh!we were just talking bou which guy lookz better
example ppl lyk (BING HONG OR KOK SENG?)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha...
i knew it was very bad to judge things lyk these but we meant no offence
i just wanted to find some topics and laugh until i burnt my lips
which actually turned out to be a total success!! :)
coz the first few lessons really makes me sick and boring and we spent our recess without regina and andrea coz they did not turned up due to their uncle...
which oso means that there will be no gossips to hear from em too
so this y i find topic lyk this to laugh about...
i can see that liting was enjoying it too but im not quite sure whether queenie did too
i think she was busy playin my hp games
which i think she was very addict to it nw thankz to me...

after recess was chemistry.
i walk into class the latest coz i was having havoc time
miss lim the teacher was quite angry wif me but i hackcare~~~~
who gives a shit?!
durin lesson,this jihan n wilson keep disturbin me bou my hair all that stuff
but i dont gives a shit at all
coz it was the all same things about my hair looks samurai
i think they were perfectly insane...
but i oso admit that i really look lyk samurai
but so wat?!
a samurai is a great hero im proud to be it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and if im a samurai,so wat are they?
GEISHA???????!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-07-02T01:00:00.000-07:00

yo!haven been blogging 4 a long long time.
hahahahah...
juz after my june holiday and im back to sch:]
o...time,luck and mood have change!!!!
now im sooo happy about going to sch :p
ha!only that i hate to wake up early in the morning
but that doesnt matter much...
bcoz i feel that im a winner nw!!!
yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahah...im sooo winner :D
this happen in me bcoz i really realize something big and important bou me
im not going to say it here coz im shy but it is really something big
hahahahah!!!!!!
thatz ol i have to say...
byby!!!!! :]

2009-05-21T06:35:00.000-07:00

actually today i had gotten back my papers...
haiz...it had been sooooo long since i fail any subjects
sad sia...
In my whole my life this is da first english paper i flunked...
Fail C.H too...
Dunno how to give my mum the answer...
Wat the hell?!
I got STUDY sia...
WHY?!
Haiz...hopefully in the overall markz i will pass my english
OMG!!!!!!
I dunno watz wrong wif my english sia...
it was like the paper was quite easy to me n i sure that i can pass it
But dunno y i get sooooooooooooooooooo low markz for it
Last term i got 70/100 for english...
Hopefully The Overalls will include last term tests den most likely i will pass!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!
I got nth to say alr...
Tooo sad...
nw i will get back to my emo bussiness...
OH GOD!!!!!!
I PRAY I PRAY!!!!!!

2009-05-16T10:00:00.000-07:00

i cant slp... nw is 1:21am
after such a long day but still im not feeling tired....
2day go facial wif mum,2day spend $188 on shopping...
but i think is worth it...coz shopping makez me feel soooo happy!
gosh!!!!!!!it really feelz great!!!!!
but nw...
duno y again,i feel lyk im such a pathetic(wateva i duno hw to spell)biatch...
is lyk dunno y tis year i alwayz felt that being an emo person is the most unwanted thing that i want in my life!!!!
can someone tell me that being emo is good or bad???
if you knw the answer juz msg or call me at 96350178 n tell me...thankz!!!
nw...
omg!!!
i dunno y?!
last tym i used to thing it is a very cool n attitude but nw i think it suckz...
last tym,i used to b a gal(tomboy) in the spotlight...
after on,i chose to shut myself up at home...
refuse to make new friendz...dun feel lyk talking tooo much or playing wif boyz...n be an unsocial person...
and even i chose to turn down my friendz everytime dey offer me to go out wif em after sch...
hahahaaa....nw although im much more galish but i such a pathetic dog...this i wat i chose...
n if i m given a chance,i would lyk to fuck it up...
nw,i sitting i front of my com. crying n thinking of those good old dayz.
some hw i guess i even it was my bdae or the day i died,no 1 will even care or rmb it...
im not goin to regret it nw...im not sure whether im goin to regret it later...
even i regret oso no use,coz ppl wont want me back and the world is changin...
nw i juz feel lyk fuckin around...
really a pathetic biatch rite???!!!!
jibye...hahahahaha...bye.

2009-05-13T23:50:00.000-07:00

arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aiyo....
tis few dayz i wanna die liao coz is exam wk.
wah...nw i hate chemistry v much coz it is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo DAMM HARD!!!!!
knn...make me study 4 it for nth...
thingz tt i had studied nv came out,i things tt i nv even heard b4 came out...
fuck sia...
nw i only hope tt tml physic paper i will get high markz to balance out my overall science markz...
haiz............................................
today is art and geo only...quite relax
dunno watz wrong wif my brain...dunno desperate or wat...
b4 exam i study until siao...then during exam i almost cnt rmb a single thing!!!!!!
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tml will b Math pp2 n physic...
crazy sia...4 mathz pp2 dey wan us to rmb OL the fomulaz by ourself...
siao lor...
duno hw m i goin to make it...
haiz...
i wish myself n ol my friends around gd luck!!!
wah i hope i cn pass ol suject sia...i dun wana drop anymore...

2009-05-04T02:28:00.000-07:00

eh yo!
haiz...
examz are around the corner...
SIANZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the last week had been a crazy week
i hate myself soo much ya'knw...
coz my stupid bloody fucking dream cum true again
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean if it is a good dream i wont mind it at all
but it is a BAD dream again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg!!!!it was totally insane ya'knw
last week,i dream about sumthing bad is gonna happen to my brother
den when i woke up,i m v sad but i force myself not to cry bcoz the dream was soo real!!!!
then i go to pray lor(coz i m a buddist ma)
wah then that nite when my brother was about to go n meet his friendz
i think they are goin out for drinking again
but my parentz drive my brother's car out 4 dinner so he had to wait 4 em 2 cum back first
and da car juz broke down lyk tt!!!!!
wah...i cnt imagine wat will happen if my brother really drive that car when he goes drinking
soooo heng arh...
my brother bo bian n he cancel the meeting wif his friends coz it was alr v late at nite n my parentz had 2 send the car 4 service...
so of coz he sian diao lahh coz no car how to go?!
wah....lucky i got pray sia
but i still angry wif myself lor...
why everytime when i dream of a thing n next it will happenz???????????
i dunno if anybody will believe me ant but it is true ok...
if dun believe den juz fuck off k...
N i dunno why nw recently i dream that all my friend dun want to tok 2 me or friend me...
of coz im scare it will cum true bcoz nw i sumtymz alr felt quite lefted out...
haiz...
i really really hope tt it will not cum true...
bcoz,say truthfully lah...tis dream is nt da first tym i dream bou it alr...
i had dream bou tis thing 4 quite alot of tymz
byby :]
n it was the stupid same thing wif the same meaning
i dunno whether izzit my fault ant
mayb i was being too sensitive
but nvm...its ok...
anyway it is juz sooner or later,coz anyway we all had to leave tis school wat...
so nvm...letz juz wait n c...

2009-04-23T00:44:00.000-07:00

wah...like tt reali got attitude rite?
hahahahahahahahaha...
reali gotta go liao... :]

im sooooooooooooooooooooo happy 2day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-23T00:25:00.000-07:00

aiya...
today same lor...go school
but today i v happy coz today is...
LITING 'S BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!Happy bday liting!!!
2day u r my yellow gal!!!
keep rockin k???
but i think you beta keep rockin even if you dun wan to,,,,,,,,,coz i will feel more bored if you dont
hahahaha...
juz kiddin,i knw you would :]
whoa!!!
2day huat arh...
coz 2day is oso the day that Liting BLOODY EX-BOYFRIEND(Desmond) gonna get his FIRST PUNISHMENT 4 torturing my best sister 4 9 to 10 mths!!!
like i said,first only...
coz sooner or later he n bitchy WEI LING will die!
fuckin cb bitch,think she wat...jigsaw face oso cn hong 2 boyz arh?!
siao!i think she dream tooooooooooooooooooo much liao...
hahahaha...
gotta go....
wah...cant stand my blog skins...
it is way toooo girlish..........
eew!!!
i gonna find somethig more attitude :]

2009-04-16T01:32:00.000-07:00

aiyo...sooo long nv blog liao still no change...
im soooo sian
but 2day im feelin more worst
life juz suckz toooo much for me
haiz...
everybody is changing...
still nt used to it...thatz y i feel fucked up
but i oso admit that i oso change alot lah
change until i hate myself sooo much that i oso dun even recogise[ps. i duno whether tis word correct ant,coz 4gt hw to spell] myself
i change until no one can understand me
even i myself oso cant understand myself
i hate myself...
hate tis world..
i think im worst than a bitch
or maybe worst than a beast...
but i will accept thoso changez...
coz i dun lyk to hate ppl in my hart...

2009-03-31T04:16:00.000-07:00

wah...2day soooooooooooo tired
wana slp...but cnt coz change seat.
nw im sittin in the first row
v v v v v tired
so bo pian,
every FRC i slp
i oso dun y i cn slp in FRC
damm hot,stuffy n crowded
but aiya hackcare lah
soooo tired liao Who Cares???

2009-03-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

ps arh regaina n andrea...i last min tell u ol i nt goin to ur chalet 2day...
i got ask liting to help me tell u ol tt i not goin but i scare she nv c her blog so i write it on blog lor

2009-03-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

2day i go out wif my family
we pass food to my dad work place b4 we go some where else
after that we follow my big bro to NUS 4 a talk
my mum thinks that is is an honour 4 her to go into NUS
she is v proud of my big bro
she wants me to get into a U tooo but i dun think i really want it
ok...im v proud of my big bro tooo but the talk in NUS is total proper boring!!![at that moment,i sian again]
then i bo bian msg regina to chat wif me awhile n of coz!i feel better
hahahahahahaha
after we went to buy the daily needs in our family n fetch my dad from work
n we go hm after that
dinner,not to say...
SIBEI FULL
i no nid to think of being thin le
i dun care oso
who cares anyway!?
hahahahaha
as long as im happy bou my body even though im fat not so pretty cn already
coz I DUN GIVE A HELL

2009-03-11T01:40:00.000-07:00

2day i never go sch coz im sick and tired of da assembly every wednesday.
go 4 wat sia??!
in school sooooooooooooo siannnnnnnnnnnn
lucky 2day my mum got program
so 2day im v happy
2day my mum buy me 1 dress
sibei nice:]
i lyk it v much but i still haven try yet.
tooooo tired to try.
but at least 2day i nt sian
im goin malaysia ltr:]
oya,i mis my baby bro sia
he go campin...i hope he is havin fun

2009-03-02T01:30:00.000-08:00

today kns
3 testz
chi pp2 firzt
follow by ss
oral next....
oral worst coz coz i scare
many wordz duno hw to pronounce...
aftersch go hartland wif regian,andrea.queenie,jasmine
mit gary halfway
di siao him
his ears turn soooo red
hahahahahaha.....................
end up running away frm us coz queenie go molest his ass
jasmine left firzt
hang out in hartland awhile den take 81 go hm

2009-02-26T22:02:00.000-08:00

wah lao...
2day sibei sianz...
but ok lah
lucky got bring storybook to read
geek rite?...
after oso nv go out wif regina or andrea or queenie
coz sick n tired
n den i walk to yueh yi hse 2 giv her hmw
ma de...
2day da whether sooo hot(this meanz there are sooo many uv rayz!!!)
n i 4gt to put sunscreen!!!
die liao!!!